...♥ you complete me.....

A chance meeting it was not
No love was lost when we met…because we didn’t
An envelope was exchanged & I was promised to you
Was I bought? I was dazed, confused & carefree!
He was missing & she guided me....I listened or just nodded.
...years have passed and here we are
I wake to see you next to me…
I sleep to the warmth you bring
My dawns are brighter with you next to me
…your arms bring me the warmth at dusks …you grace my dreams for they are beautiful with you in them
If I were given one more life…I’d ask for you as my love again…for with you I am complete…
Twenty one years & here I am…incomplete without you!
I await the dawn of your arrival…for with you I am complete!

Bakers' dozen...& I am okay!

She smiles, she dreams
She laughs, she cries
All alone, hugs amiss
She fairs as fair can be
She screams she hushes... Oh she knows
Alone she must be....alone she feels
She smiles, she dreams...oh she knows
But it has been only a bakers dozen...
Can she? Will she? Make it?...so we shall see!

She breathes

We adhere to things. Little knick knacks that hold special memories for us, though when time comes to part ways we struggle. I struggle!


She breathes she dreams & wakes
She loves, lusts and embraces
A woman, a child, a dreamer at heart
She hurts, she inflicts and she absorbs
Life unexpected becomes an exception
She fights, she wins and accepts defeat
Love Lust Labor, all Lost hopes
A ray, a spark, Hope in her eyes
Life evolves & adapts, so she must

She breathes she dreams & wakes!

Makar Sankranti...Uttarayan 2014!

Galiyon mein lage hogein woh charkhein manjo ke

Ek alag sii khusboo hogi saher mein

Rang be Rangee ladiya hogi Patango kii

Woh suraj se pehle uthne ka wada khud se

Woh shamm ko gubaron kii roshni…woh phatako ki zilmilahat….

Chalo yaad karle woh bachpan phir se

Jub hum the…tum the…tha woh chatt pe rehna pura din

Ha….chalo aaj doston se kuch pech ladalein….

Aur jo katein uski dor…toh zorr se chikhe…kai po che!!! Happy Makar Sankranti!!! Missing Vadodara…missing all & Roshan…you’re missed dearly!!

A Gentle Soul....

A gentle giant of sorts

He lived for others…for others he gave all

Progress he yearned for …progress he achieved

A beloved brother, uncle, husband, father and grandfather…to his loved ones

A benefactor, a source of soundness…an equal voice for just causes

Admired and loved by many…family, friends and foe alike

Though they may not admit it…even his enemies coveted his eminence

Rest in peace o gentle giant…your shoes stay empty for none can walk your path

An ode to a beloved man…an ode to our uncle!

my muse - ii

Life sure does play cruel games with us humans. Some of us are smart enough to join in and the rest, well it is pain to watch them suffer.

-As time passes by I look back at “my muse” & wonder what if?
-What if he & I were to take the same path?
-where would we have ended up?

All these `what ifs` and no one to answer them. Shame and guilt eludes my thoughts when I think of him. I feel no shame for he is my muse. I feel no guilt for I haven’t committed a crime.
He visits my dreams from time to time. Some are pleasant and some are dreadful. I don’t dwell on them much anymore. My life is my own now! I have taken control, I have taken charge and I have no regrets. We talk once in a blue moon and it is getting to be a little awkward. I don’t know what to say when we get on the phone..& then the silence follows with ums & huhs…

you are missed

I see his eyes and feel the pain
I see his eyes & see the tears
I hug him and I know the need
He needs you & you are gone
He loves you & you are missed
Help me help him…help us
Show a sign, let him know, he was loved…he is loved!
He is hurt, he is mad…help him pour it out
Helpless am I…words fail me …for they never do
But when I see his eyes…they dissipate!

You are loved …you are gone....you are missed!

For: RH

Sleepless night and I am thinking of you
Eyes wide shut & I am dreaming of you
My heart beats & I am blaming you
I sense you when I breath I breath & I am sensing you

Moi Shari

You keep me sane
You keep me grounded
You make me laugh
& you’ve made me cry
You have kept me out of jail…oh but more than once
You read my work & praise me higher than high
Drugs you supply without a hitch
For more than once I was a bitch
Envy you for you have Ruthie so close by
One of these days I will come by
Shari, oh Shari…you are a friend
A friend I need when I am in need
You are a friend indeed!

Bhiini bhiini sii barish ki boondein...
choo gayee yun anng mera...
jaise kahin meelon dur se ussne haath badhaya aur chooaa mujhe!!
           Saundhi saundhi sii khusboo iss barish ki…
           yaad aayii woh barish, jub hum the, tum the, aur tha bachpan hamara…
           woh fidvi mahal ki chhat…woh milna woh rootha...aur phir manana uska
           hai woh barish…woh bachpan hamara!!!