memories...

I came to listen to "ye raate na ee purani...from Julie and that was it. All the old memories started flowing. I recalled those days spent at Fidvi Mahal. The naughtiness, the mischievous rendezvous on first floor with all of us behind the closed doors, the beatings I got for cheating at a game of langdi or hide&seek! Seven fists from every player...on my back & it hurt! Everyone hit hard enough to cause pain...but there were a few of them who'd go easy everytime. Why? U know who you are, I need not drop names!

I would sneek the keys while my mum & aunts slept during their routine afternoon naps. We'd all get in...go out the back door & lock the front door with its old fashion lock. Wonder if mum still has that lock. I would like to hold on to that!
Those were the days...that was the childhood I remember and cherish.....those were the days! The days gone by, days I wish my children would have had. It wasn't all about gadgets or texting, it was all about FUN...about having all those you loved by you!!! It was about being a child....our kids sad to say will never know that!!!

you are missed...

I saw the sun rise before I fell asleep... the day dawned & I was dismayed and chaotic... night looms again & I fear sleep...

I am "spoiled"!! as many would attest to it. However, I do not think so. I did not think so...until the sun set yesterday. My world seemed incomplete, desolate and quite. I didn't feel spoiled at all when I forced myself to my bedroom...I didn't feel spoiled when I watched the sun rise & had no one to share it with.

Amazing how we take things, people and certain liberties for granted? I am probably the only one to admit it. Life does not stop as time does not. It goes on!! I fear the day I have to go along alone. It is unbearable now knowing that it is only temporary...

Fireflies....

My soft pillows were beckoning me....

I couldn’t get away from my pc. I couldn’t turn down the music. By now, it had replayed maybe 7 times or so…and I still wanted to hear it more and more and more.
OWL CITY’s fireflies!! This is me, my folly!

Damn this guy is good! I wondered how, when and where did he come up with the lyrics. They hold on, a grasp that takes one to wonderland. I, for a moment was back home in New York…walking the same old street dreaming of things I can’t fathom.
One more time I tell my hubby…just one more! He normally would gripe at it, wanting to get some sleep but today he too is listening to what I was listening. I wonder if he’s lost too…lost in his own World. The places I envisioned the people I missed, the streets I recalled & you…

Nostalgic moods occupy my brain waves these days. It must be these harsh winters of Wisconsin...or just missing my parents..or maybe the fact the my kids don't seem to need me as much. I am officially mum to 2 teenagers & I am still sane!! for now atleast...

Note to self: Buy the Album! Upload song on my iPod!

ma vie s'effiloche

In the depths of my mind
My life unravels slowly
I dream & imagine a story wild
Lest it remains unraveled
Sanity an ordinary thought
A heart wants what it wants
A mind wishes & the heart sways
The saga unfolds as the heart desires

Sleep eludes me & smiles
Sleep beckons me & laughs
I know it’s fruitless
I dream, a dream impossible
My angst, sleep’s ecstasy
I have us to thank
Me myself and I

Translation:
ma vie s'effiloche = my life unravels

Is Mod Se Jaate Hain

"Is Mod Se Jaate Hain
Kuchh Sust Qadam Raste Kuchh Tez Qadam Raahe...
Ye Soch Ke Baithhi Hu Ik Raah To Woh Hogi
Tum Tak Jo Pahonchti Hai
Is Mod Se Jaati Hai"-gulzar

Is mod se jaate hai...I take the same old road everyday to and from work. The trees are getting that early fall color and it's beautiful. I see the same old people running, walking & some even raking the leaves off of their lawns.

I get to and from my destination everyday...but some days I wonder how? I brake for chipmunks, squirrels & even damn birds who fly too low. Once I braked so hard, I almost ended up in the ditch off of S.P Rd! I even hit a deer once, didn't kill it!
Okay, so what is with birds and height? They have the entire sky...but no they seem to be all flocking to die on my windshield!?
On these drives home, I sometimes think of days spent in New York. I even think about the monsoons of Baroda and my terrace! I remember how I used to take my snack..or even my lunch upstairs & eat on the top of the water tank...ahh those were the days!

On other note, am glad that it is cooling down a bit. People tend to shy away from winter weather and cold, I however look forward for the cool, cold & barren days of winter. I see it as another chapter in life. All things must fall to rise again. Must disappear to appear again!

my qualms..

Moonlit sky with clouds of grey
I stare at the stars & back at the moon
They hide & I seek them out
With you a world full of qualm
With him my dreams full of doubts
Where do I go, where do I stay
I am lost, as is my soul
You found me & him my heart!

we talked..

We talked, you and I
We laughed, you and I
I cried, you knew not
I smiled, you pondered

We talked, you and I
We laughed, you and I
You cried, I knew
You smiled, I wondered

We talked, you and I…

shadows...of you and I

I love it when I sit in the shadows of the moon
Thinking of you, thinking of me
I love it when I bathe in the cool spring rain
Thinking of days, days gone by
I love it when I am dreaming
Dreaming of you, dreaming of me
I love it when I rouse looking at you
Smiling at you, smiling at me
I love it when I sit in the shadows of the moon
Thinking of you, thinking of me!

Clouds...

You can tell I was bored on our drive to Milwaukee or was just enthralled by the clouds that day...as always I started snapping away...& here are some of the pictures.

Fields in Winnebago County, WI



Over Lake Butte des Morts

fate

like the waters of a raging river
time passes by never to reappear
you and i too shall pass
dust to dust ashes to ashes
we too shall disappear