Brisé Cœur

She sat on the cold steps amidst the warmth of late summer rains. She dreams, day dreams of his touch, his embrace and of their childhood. She recalls those summer days when she would await his arrival. They would come to spend their summer vacation in her small city away from the hustle & bustle of Pune.

Like the morning doves awaiting the arrival of the mighty sun, she would wait for their Rickshaw or Taxi to arrive around 6:30am...not a morning person at all but on this impending day she could hardly sleep...she knew he would call out her name the minute he stepped out...she'd rush down say her hellos to all and then hand in hand they walk up to the terrace. Plans plans and more plans.

The summer would pass by in a heartbeat and she'd never remember anything but him. What they did? What he did? Would he miss her? She already missed him. Years passed and now she's 17 and living in Newport, WA. They reunite after 4 years and 5 missed summers later in the summer of '97. She senses something different in the way he approaches her. It is as though he calculates her moves and responds cautiously. When they are alone, he can't seem to look away from her. He's hiding something she feels as though he has changed.

Off course he had changed, it has been years. Maybe she will finally hear him say what she has waited for years? Maybe he will tell her how much she has grown, and notice that she longer is a tomboy..but a girl. She braves up and tells him how much she has missed him, missed their summers. Never a shy type of a person yet today, she feels a bit shy. He senses that and moves a little closer to comfort her. She leans into him, he holds her hand…fingers tangled they walk on.
They were going somewhere...they arrive at their destination...she sits on that lonely bench they called their nook and watched him glide on in next to her...she smiles and asks.."What?"

He swings his arm around her shoulders and plants a quaint kiss on her cheek. She lets him and nudges a little more closer to him. He looks at her and says, "I have always liked you, but we can't do this. I wanted to tell you, but I couldn't until now, Sydney I love someone else" he still embraced her and she didn't want him to let go. She couldn't look at him, nor could she hide her tears. He turned to her, to face her and look in her eyes, he gasped "I am sorry, you know Syd it wouldn't work and you know it don't you?" She just shook her head and let the tears flow, he embraced her a little tighter now… She wanted to scream...but she held back her feelings and wished she hadn't held them back for years. Maybe, things would have been different then and even now. Before he’d say anything else, she stood up and started walking. He followed her and he took her hand in his and she let him. They walked hand in hand without a word until her doorstep...he waited outside as she shut the door behind her. Sydney knew she had just lost her first love. Sydney would suffer the pain, the anguish until the day love found her again.

Même aujourd'hui, quand elle se demande de ce qui pourrait avoir été, elle jette une larme ou deux pour Phoenix, pour sa première passion

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